Tuesday, August 26, 2008

11:20 PM

Well, my dilemma has been solved. Thanks for the advice people! Especially Vanessa. Haha. In the end, I dropped cultural psych and took another module, which thankfully is not as heavy.

However, that has led to another complication. Now I am really really slack. Its bad ok! I have deadlines to meet, as well as that stupid econs paper to write (I only got as far as copy and pasting information from online. which is not much. ARGH) I realise that I am totally not in the right frame of mind to start school yet, because my heart is still far far away in the snowy ice-capped mountains. What's more, I have no urge to do any work once I get off class. Coming back from exchange is more agonizing than starting it. Because you know you have at least 4 months of non-school to look forward to. Well the main point of exchange is not studying, even though you will eventually get down to some form of studying sometime within those months you are over there.

But still. I have no concentration left! It doesn't help that I have many shows waiting for me to watch on my computer. I guess while my brain has accepted that I have started school, my heart has yet to do so, and thus it keeps wandering around, to anywhere but work. Its painful, because I have promised myself that I would work hard for my last 2 semesters.

What's more, people around me are trickling off to exchange. Wini has gone off to Canada already, and Alan has gone to HK, with Xiaoqian and Marcus flying off to Vienna soon as well. I want to return to that phase in my life again, where all you worry about is where you will be traveling to next. Sigh.

Which leads me to my next ranting point. (In case you haven't noticed, this post is all about complaints.) There is absolutely no one who has the same break times as me! Sure, I have friends in every class I am taking this semester, but I have no lunch buddies at all! It seems like whenever I am free, people have class; and whenever I have class, people are free. Its going to be a lonely sem, I predict. :(

Maybe I will be so overcome by loneliness and boredom that I will start doing work. Maybe.

ARGH.