Sunday, January 02, 2011

11:42 PM

Another year has begun. Let all the unhappiness of the past year go with the conclusion of this chapter - let's start with a new slate.

I'm beginning to explore my options once again. From the previous year's desperation to be employed, to having held a "proper" job for one year, I must say the ideals I hold still ring true. I still believe that I can find satisfaction in my work and that there is one job that you can do everyday and not get tired of it. So far, I honestly confess that I have not found it yet. The changes in my portfolio notwithstanding, I don't think I have been stretched in my area of work, in the way that I want. Sometimes I feel that I have to dumb myself down in order to communicate with others at my workplace. That may sound snobbish, but that's who I am. I want to work in an environment that stimulates me to think and grow intellectually, and not just pander to so many other people's needs as if I live to serve them.

I'm not a customer service-type and never will be. I have affirmed this fact for so long, but my attempt to communicate this somehow could not get through to my supervisor. He told me that "sometimes in life, you cannot always get what you want". Maybe so, in terms of how things out of your control might just happen. But I believe you can take control of the aftermath, and that's what I'm going to do. I can't always get what I want in life, but my job is not my whole life. Staying is not the only option. If I can find something else that offers me what I much prefer, why should I stay? He has his point of view, I have mine. If these do not and cannot coincide, then we have reached a parting of ways. No point making myself unhappy in this way.

So any new options, please present to me. Yes, you, the one who still remembers the presence of this blog. :D