Wednesday, November 25, 2009

11:11 AM

Strange how people change when they move on to working life. Some become so obsessed with work that it becomes their whole life. Every single thing revolves around work. Friends? Relegated to somewhere at the periphery of the consciousness and only remembered when there is a lull in work. Actually we should have been prepared for such an occurence, since such workaholic behavior starts from while we are still in school. Those that are always involved in some activity or other in their clubs or with their classes are more likely to become obsessed workaholics in the future. I have proven examples for that.

But seriously, always busy? Like 24/7 busy? However much work has become your life, I don't believe it. Maybe I'm being hypocritical since I have not started work yet and can't experience how fulfilling work can be that it will take up my whole life, and maybe its just a step towards a great career. I don't know that. And truthfully? I don't really want that if this is what it takes. I understand that everyone has different goals in life, and these lead to different paths, away from each other. Then again, maybe its just selective response, and we are not the lucky ones who get replies. Its ok. I can't be bothered anymore.

(This is an accumulation of things that have been happening since I don't know when. I'm not at my angriest point, that was long past. Just felt like talking about it now. Friends may not be the most important people in our lives, but I don't think I can ever survive without them. But that's just me.)

Friday, November 20, 2009

11:39 AM

ok decided! will be in a ministry which safeguards the country from internal threats. But things don't seem so confirmed yet to me though, the higher-ups gotta give approval before they get back to me on the actual contract and starting date -_- I foresee a damn steep learning curve job-wise, and will probably have quite alot of work to do. To those working at a certain mrt stop along the red line, you'll get an additional lunch buddy! Haha.

(I'm not saying straight out where I'll be working just in case. lol.)

Sunday, November 15, 2009

12:13 PM

I got offers! Deciding between two different organisations right now, and even after they called, I had more calls for interviews at other places. Seems apt to use the phrase "when it rains, it pours" here, but with a positive connotation to it. lol. Monday will be the day of decision. I can't really predict how happy I will be at the job, but I just pray that my decision will not be something I regret. Which means I'm not choosing the org for its name or just the pay or because the position sounds nice. But I am always in danger of doing that. Which makes me think it might not be very good to have choices sometimes. Existential guilt brought to the fore, man.

That said, I can finally declare my job search over. Well, for now. Its been a long six months since the final exams in uni, and I must say one of the most eventful periods of my life. Not exactly the best time of my life either. At least I can say that I'm finally going to leave behind aimless unemployment and move on to the rat race. At least I'll be earning and not feel like a useless bum.

Wednesday, November 11, 2009

9:27 PM

我很不喜欢猜疑的感觉。但是有时，我还是会情不自禁地想，所听到的忠告，到底几分是出自关心，而几分是出自于那个人对自己的生活上的不满。我并不怀疑那份好意，只是觉得所获得的意见有时有点偏激。在这时候，我不禁会想此忠告到底有没有真正针对我的情况说出来。其实我很感谢一直以来每个朋友在找工作方面的帮助，但是最终的决定还是在于我吧，语出伤人实在有点过分。尤其当你根本不清楚我想要的是什么，也不知道当下的情况，就草率的下定论，真得让我觉得那并非善意的批评。真的需要因为我不采取意见就说重话吗？而有时候则是明明自己说了会尊重我的决定，却会因为不赞同我的想法而以非常不屑的语气口是心非。我了解这份关心，但是我非常不喜欢这种咄咄逼人的关心，也不想有那种要因为别人而勉强改变想法的感觉。

Tuesday, November 03, 2009

8:16 PM

1 rejection (on both sides, actually, job fit was epic fail), 1 no news, 2 through to the next round! *crosses fingers*
The one that came through email was quite shocking though, I was only in the interview room for around 5 to 10 min and I thought there wasn't much hope. Apparently its called a preliminary interview for a reason. lol.

Wish me luck!

By the way: I fell and injured my foot on Friday. Wasn't exactly my ankle as stated on facebook, but didn't know how to phrase it, haha. Thankfully its getting much better, hopefully will be good enough for me to squeeze into heels for my next interview.