Monday, April 02, 2007

12:08 AM

Well, first draft of TnA paper is finally out. After one entire stressed-out week and much hair-pulling over the stupid thing, finally came up with something that looks intelligible. Hope it is of a certain standard, cos I can't bring myself to look at it yet.

I hate it when there is something which is of the topmost priority just screaming to be done, and I have to deal with less important things but with earlier deadlines. Really felt like giving everything else up to just concentrate on that one paper, cos I was very scared that I could not link the ideas again if I stop working on it for too long.

I also think that this has made me neglect my other stuff, like the project reports that are due these few days. I really feel bad about leaving all the work to others, especially my TWC project. Argh. Even though I don't think my groupmates will read this, I still want to apologize for being too immersed in my own paper to bother about other stuff. Diffusion of responsibility here, you see, even though its not an excuse.

But I seem to be taking my project groups for granted this term. Everyone is too efficient until I don't seem to be needed to do anything much. Like there's always someone who volunteers first to do every single part of the project. I don't want to be a social loafer..... :(

This really has to be the worst Week 13 ever. I have become so ill-disciplined that all my things are left to the very last minute. Whether it is applying for internship or doing work, I have applied the same theory -- there is still time, so I can leave it till tml. I am quite certain that I would not have been so stressed if I had spread out my workload after school restarted. But what happened? Fun got into the way. Of course it is more enjoyable to watch shows or go shopping and whatnot, and I REALLY DID THAT. I need to get my self-discipline back. Crap.

Ok. That's it. Even though people always say resolutions can never be lived up to, I shall just dismiss it as a form of self-handicapping everyone does. I will chiong for my two exams with minimal distractions. Everyone, please do not contact me unless it is about school work. Abit drastic I know, but when it comes to studying I don't work well with multiple distractions like the phone going off every 10 minutes. I will be back after my exams end! (shall not say when, if not I kenna killed.. lol)

Yeah! Everyone, exam period is coming soon. After chionging our papers let's all work hard to do our best in the exams! THEN we can happily enjoy the hols (hopefully got internship :( ).

Oh well, shall stop here. If not get depressed thinking about internship again. Pui.